It’s the holidays, that means anxiety creeps around every corner for a lot of individuals but don’t be afraid, you are not alone. Even the greatest have times of hopelessness, it’s about learning to disagree with it when it comes. We are human, it is vital for us to fail, it is important for us to learn.. I think it’s wise to dismiss being a ‘master’ of something or being perfect because no matter how much we study or work on something, it constantly evolves, so we are always being encouraged to adapt. If you cannot adapt you will get left behind. We are students and we are teachers, we are artists and we are art. Understand your power and balance them.. Appreciate each lesson life provides you and be gentle towards yourself when you can’t understand it right away. 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 I used to spend every thanksgiving stuffing my face and vomiting between each meal, getting so worked up in my head and feeling the pressures of being perfect crumble before me. I couldn’t help but allow myself to become overwhelmed with my eating disorder around this time of the year which deprived me of being present with my family AND myself. I can’t tell you it will be easy to figure out how to be with your emotions on this holiday but I can tell you that no matter how many times you fall or start over, you’re learning more and more about yourself. You’re learning how to love who you are, to be who you want to be, and to discover what it is that you actually need in life. You have to make the commitment to yourself to be your own hero; a hero wouldn’t bash himself and stay down when his world is falling apart, nah man, he gets back up and he fights the good fight no matter the opponent, even when it’s himself.
Honesty if you’re struggling today please feel free to message me, I’ll do my best to respond to you and give you some advice if needed.. but trust me, when I tell you that you too can get past your demons, you will one day run with them rather them run you.
I love you, now enjoy your day. Be easy :) photo: @nova_garza
A proud moment..
Our academy #Invincible_Taekwondo_Dojang secured 2nd Position in 33rd District and 13th Inter-School Taekwondo Championship 2017.
@Scholar Mission School, Baikunthpur, Bithoor Road, Kanpur
Dated: 11-12 November, 2017
ताइक्वांडो प्रतियोगिता के विजेताओ हुए सम्मानित
💧 H 2 E A U N O 💧
Playing about with a flow for the element of water (hip/groin opening) along to the crystalline sounds of Debussy's 'Reflets dans l'eau'
When I'm going through emotionally rough times, my body tends to want to curl up into a little ball to "protect" my heart, but also my hips and adductors get ridiculously tight too. I used to be one to shy away from dealing with my emotions and how they showed up in my body, I didn't want to have to go through the process of removing the thorn in my side as I knew it would be messy. I guess in a way I got comfortable with having my depression, my fears and anxiety, I used them like a comfort blanket, as they say, "Better the devil you know"...but ultimately I was being held back from a better life, a life that had so much more to offer than I was allowing and the only one stopping me was me and my shadows.
It's an eye-rolling cliche to say that sometimes the things we dislike about ourselves are the very things we need to prioritise and work on, however it is truth. The inner work takes time, it's not beautiful, it can be gut-wrenching and at times it can feel like you've only moved forward an inch, but it is WORTHWHILE.
GO INTO YOUR EMOTIONS rather than GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS. The sooner you start the inner work of facing the scary stuff the closer you get to clarity, removing the layers that no longer serve you...as long as you have supportive friends and/or family round you, you can get through ANYTHING. I've come through BPD, anxiety, depression, losing 2 loved ones to suicide, losing a close friend to cancer, abuse, rape, countless heartbreaks...and I know that whilst I have breath in my lungs there will be many more things that life will throw at me. Be your own hero/ine.