The day you came into the world you made me happier than I could of every hoped but Momma Bear is still depressed.
The first time you latched to breast feed I felt feelings of pride I never thought I could but Momma is still depressed.
The day you first smiled and said 'Mamma' my heart tripled in size but Momma is still depressed.
You see my baby boy, you are not responsible for or accountable for fixing my depression. I don't ever want you to think for a second that you don't make Mummy happy enough because you do, everyday I smile and have deep rooted gratitude for your presence but that doesn't always fix a broken mind; I want you to know that my depression might stop me from showing my love in ways I want some days but know that its not and never will be your fault, I love you so purely.
Stop expecting mothers with mental health problems to be 'fixed'. Having a baby doesn't cure depression and it doesn't mean I'm sad about having my son or don't love him.
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For those of you who don't know I quit dancing when I was 17, I'm almost 29 now so I had a solid 11 years off! I've been back in the dance world for less than a year now and I am so happy to be following my dreams and passions again 🙏🏻 It's never too late, don't give up.
So, here it is. As most know, I have Sickle Cell. But what a lot of people don't know is that with Sickle Cell comes a heavy dose of anxiety. Dealing with chronic pain on an almost daily basis. Going to bed fine and waking up unable to move due to an incredible amount of pain, never knowing when it's coming, living in hospitals from time to time, on opiates because the pain is too much, being needled over and over and over again... It's going to take a toll on your mental health. I have never really discussed this with anyone, maybe 1 or 2 people. So I'm completely putting myself out there with all this but I hope that there is someone out there who deals with anxiety and reading this so they know they're not alone. I just wanna spread awareness and possibly help someone along the way. I have just about pushed away everyone I hold near and dear to my heart. I do it all the time. Dealing with the pain from SC and being on meds and painkillers don't help at all, they make it worse. But still, no excuse. I get into my head and create problems where there are no problems. My imagination is always running wild. I try to talk things out, but I won't believe what I'm being told. I think I'm being lied to, plotted against, like everyone is in on a joke but me. Which would make most feel isolated, angry, or hurt. When in reality, it's all bulls*it. So then I knowingly create problems and do or say things that make people want nothing to do with me. I do this more than I'd like to admit. It sucks. So, to anyone out there that I have done this to, in any way shape or form. I am deeply sorry for any hurt I may have caused. If I've done this to you and you're still here, please, bare with me. I'm working on this. I've been dealing with this a long time, I recognize it, and I'm taking the proper steps in order to correct it. Love you all, have a fantastic day.